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Voice in My Head
The voice in my head Points out every flaw Every line colored out of the norm Every pound gained And lost Veiled behind a sheer compliment Or screamed at the mirror That I have always been I replaced your voice With my own It loves me in a way you never did Never could Years…
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I miss you
I struggle to say I miss you. Because I don’t not really anyway. I miss the version of you, that I created in my head. The person I wanted you to be. But never were. That’s on me.
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Band Aid
This is only temporary I know This band aid this thing to kill the pain stop the bleeding numb the lonlyness But it can’t last forever and man, is it going to hurt when its over
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Asking for to much
I want a love That makes my heart feel As good as That first warm ray of sun Feels on my skin After a long Cold winter
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Overachiever
I have always been good at having bad timing I know just when to say the wrong thing I can perfectly misguide my anger and misplace my pain I am an overqualified over thinker I have mastered not learning my lesson I can intellectualize my feelings and feel assumptions My potential for greatness unmatched when…
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Prone To Wonder
As night brightens to day I find myself stuck in the middle neither here, nor there not lost not found Trapped someplace between the mornings promises and the nights rest Freefalling like a feather
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Field of Death
Tip toeing through a field of landmines, a garden of carelessly planted death, some left by others, years ago, many placed by us, unknowingly. This field of destruction, of our own making is our home now. Beautiful clear safety just on the other side of no mans land. Will it be our ruin to get…
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I’ll be Fine
I’ll be fine We all tell ourselves We say it back and forth I’ll be ok It’s an admission of pain But a denial of suffering It’ll be alright We stumble over the right words The pretty words It’ll all work itself out We are all just placaters Afraid to deal with the truth I…
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Longing
Longing to cry but my eyes are like dry wells remembering when they could pool and puddle but now hold nothing Longing to feel but my chest is an empty cave hallow and barren as an empty grave wishing even for death Longing to reach out but my hands feel only nothingness haunted by what…
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Hekell and Jyde
The smell of you lingers on my skin. The rush of endorphins I get from that smell, matched only by your touch. The familiar smell washes over me. A rush of anger mixed terror floods my body as I remember your touch. The depths of your eyes. Dark and sad. The beauty to much to…
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The Ghost
I sit in the silance pain devours me yet, I feel nothing. I stare into the vast nothingness the heavy vail remains untorn. Do you see nothing as I see nothing did you ever desire me did I you? No still small voice beackonds stillness unresolved hallow foot prints in the sand No cities on…
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Lost
I look to you but you are not there My guiding light my beacon in the dark Dimed by self doubt hidden behind fabrication I search for you but you wont be found My path to the future my only real direction Blocked by ruins obscured by obstacles I call to you but you don’t…
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You
Fuck youYou and your web of lies so intricately woven to trap me as your prey Fuck youYou and the way you so easily destroy me to save yourself Fuck youYou and your followers who do what you say to remain in your favor Fuck you You and your uncontrollable lust that kills all that…
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Fernhill Park
Twitchy tingling heartpins and needle touchsharp breathsoft lipswild imagination. Flushing fluttering heartwarm and soothing skinrushed breathparted lipsfulfilled imagination
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Snake
We weren’t walking in a perfect gardenBut it was ours, and ours aloneWe didn’t know about the snakeSlithering along our livesClaiming friendship, offering liesWe let the snake into our gardenIt weaved deseption among usIt separated the weak from the pack Wrapping its body slowly around its prayWhispering sweet nothings into earsIt was to late when…
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Body of Work
Life is too full of critical eyes and running desperately low of listening ears. While helpful hands are all but extinct, shoulders to cry on have all grown cold. My cheeks are dizzy from the constant turning.
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Remember
How can you not remember?How are the details of what you claim to be the worst night of your life not etched into your mind’s eye forever?I can never forget. The memories of that night haunt me in explicit detailthey will never leave me. Time does not erase those moments. It will never matter how…
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Winter no More
Wintersdark, cold, discontentment..living in the shadows of broken hopes and dreams.Pull the vail of loneliness over the eyes of the disheartened. But then, the Sun.Warm, shining rays of promise casting out the blacknessto give life and meaning again.Opening the eyes of thebrokenand warms the soul to life.
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The Garden
We weren’t walking in a perfect gardenBut it was ours, and ours aloneWe didn’t know about the snakeSlithering along our livesClaiming friendship, offering liesWe let the snake into It weaved deseption among usIt separated the weak from the pack Wrapping its body slowly around its prayWhispering sweet nothings into earsIt was to late when we…
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True Story
Standing alone in a crowd of people.It’s too loud, but not loud enough to drown out my thoughts.Is it weird that I am here alone?Are people judging me?Pitying me?I don’t care, I decide. I don’t need anyone, anything, to be enough.I can have just as much fun on my own.On my own. All alone.The first set…
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Sun Painting
The Sun rises to greet his belovedHe paints the early morning sky with a dazzling display of his love for her. She feels his warmth, and takes in all his beauty as she descends into the darkness. Knowing full well that when she rises it will be to an equally beautiful display of his departing…
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Siren
You watched from a distanceEver presentnever close Planning your plunderTiming your takeover Your call faint at firstThen strongerNow defining Beautiful but brokenTempting but treacherous Your poison dipped lipsPromise safetyOffer death Killing with kindness Infecting with infidelity As you pull underClaim victory In defeat
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The Harvest
The seeds of doubt and deception were planted long ago.And though, not by me, I willing offered my garden to the planter.He offered his sunshine smile to warm the dirt.And the seed grew.Emotions rained down and gave life to the seed.It burst forth, strong, and tall.Looming over the whole garden.Overshadowing all else. Through periods of sun…
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Tiny Tornadoes
A million tiny tornadoes fill my mindone for each worryeach insecurityeach self doubtcausing chaosconfusionas some run their destructive course they dissipateothers merge togethercreating more destructionwhat if one day they all collideall the worries blending togetherinto one giant cyclone of crippling fearthen what will I becomebut a chronic force of self destructionI cannot let it beso…
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Sun Loves Moon
The sun and the moon. Eternally connected Chasing eachother through the stars Through the centuries. The sun brings light to the moon’s darkness Lifting her from her hidden place. The moon brings calm to the sun’s flames Keeping him from burning out. The distance between them can not keep the sun from shining his light…
