I Hate It

You get too close and I’ll push you away

Keep you as a best friend

But tell myself I don’t feel anything

To scared to be real with you

And with myself

I won’t let myself be hurt again

But I hurt myself in the process

You play along

Give me space

Hold me close

I tell myself we would never work

Convince myself that I know what’s best

But my past whispers to me that I am wrong

So scared of making the wrong choice again

Of giving myself to someone who doesn’t deserve me

Again

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