Evermore

I know you won’t see this

The way you see the pain in my eyes

I hate the way you read me

Read between the lines

But you’ll never know the depth

The pool in which I am drowning

You play by my rules

Stay behind the walls I built

We laugh at our brokenness

Like it isn’t killing us both

I thought this was what I wanted

But I have some how lost myself

I know we can’t be for real

Can’t be forever

So much of me wants that to be a lie

I tell myself so it won’t hurt

I want to run the other way

And straight to your arms

I want to be your everything

And nothing

To feel nothing

But I don’t.